Greetings from the edge

Well, here we are, teetering between one year and the next, swearing to ourselves and anyone who'll listen that this year, this time, somehow, we're going to get it right. Go join the gym. Really use the membership this time. Quit smoking. Eat better. Go to the dentist. Get that new colonoscopy everyone is raving about. Whatever, people all over the world are making resolutions.

I don't like them; they always seemed so all-or-nothing to me, hold to that promise or the whole year is a bust. I try to make recommendations. what-abouts. Suggestions.

So. This year I suggest that I try to be the mother I wanted. Everyone, no matter how wonderful their mother is/was, wanted something from her that they didn't get. So every day, just for that day, I am going to try and be that person. If I don't pull it off with quite the flair I had hoped (or if I didn't pull it off at all), there's always the next day.

I was thinking that I would try making something I've never made, and selling it. I have no idea what. I have no idea to whom. But it sounds like it could be fun, so that's nice.

I may try the NaNoWriMo again. I wrote more this year than I ever have before, and I consider that quite the success. Maybe next time I can write even more than I already have. Gotta have goals.

My main suggestion, though, is to concentrate on home and everyone in it. Now that Dude is becoming more active and aware of what's going on, I realize that I haven't spent as much time -- intensive one-on-one time -- with him as I did with Perp at this age. Of course it would have been hard to, since she was the only baby in the house and he's got a lot of competition. But she's going to start going to preschool three days a week and I intend to make it a priority to spend most of that time with Dude. He clearly needs more together time than she ever did. I'll do my best.

Husband has also suffered this year, and my strongest suggestion is to remedy that: Date Night. Regularly. Maybe even a Child-free Night. Woohoo. Movies. In a theater. New movies, like, before they go to DVD or cable.

AndIhopetobeabetterpersonandallthatshitbutreallywhoamIkidding.

Happy new year. I humbly suggest you have a good one.